Hey you guys!
…you’re still here, right? My silence hasn’t scared you away?
Oh good.
Hi. π
I suppose I would summarize it as:
ANXIETY
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[parenting, freelancing, blogging, body, social media presence]
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What I’ve been up to & why I’ve been quiet
So yeah.
The kids were away for a week a couple of week ago, visiting Jesse’s mom and stepdad. The break let us rest and reset our routines and priorities.
I introspected (as I do). I realized that the more burnt out I had been feeling as a mom in lockdown, the harder I was leaning into my Instagram account and, especially, leaning on my community there for support and company.
Which is good…
But the more I leaned into my Blushy Ginger-ing, the more I was feeling disconnected from the kiddos, and it wasn’t helping my burnout on the mom front.
So when they got home, I became very quiet online, left my phone in other rooms of the house (gasp!), and just focused on spending time with them.
Which Is good…
But the more I leaned into “being the best mom I can be,” the more I was feeling disconnected from my support system online. It might be hard to believe if you don’t do the online thing, but the friendships I’ve made online with other mental health and motherhood writers and creators have been huge sources of comfort and encouragement.
So… I’ve been having kind of a crisis of clarity and balance.
Obviously the kids are my world, my priority, my snuggly little cupcakes of cuddles and giggles. But I do still need my own time to use my brain and work on my mental health.
I’ve been having trouble finding balance.
So, I went quiet online, especially on my blog.
I’ll save the freelancing and body parts of the equation for another post.
I just wanted to give a little update.
Oh, and I redesigned my site, yet again. This time, it’s to bring my freelancing services under the same umbrella as my mental health blogging. I’ll chat about that soon too. π
Thanks for still being here.
Balance is such a simple word, but so much harder to actually find. Unless you’re a guinea pig, that is. Eat-poop-sleep-repeat is pretty manageable.
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Omgosh can I be a guinea pig for the rest of 2020?
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Sign me up if that’s an option!
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πΉ
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I’m glad you are doing OK, even if the balance is hard.
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Thank you for sticking with me π
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feeling unbalanced seems to be a standard state for so many people right now, which is so sad and hard. I’m glad you identified it and are working on it… that probably puts you ahead of the curve! love ya lady.
(the other girl who’s been quiet.)
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Thank you!!! I can’t see who you are (it lists you as “Someone” but I appreciate your comment so much!
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Support to you as you explore life
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Thank you πππ I appreciate you so much.
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Balance is so tricky sometimes. β€οΈβ€οΈ
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It really is π
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I feel this! I’m not a mum, but since going back to work after lockdown I’m struggling to find a balance between my online work and social connections and my offline work, family and friends. It’s nice to hear an honest account from someone else who’s struggling with balance – thanks for sharing. The whole world feels unbalanced at the moment, so it’s not surprising we feel off-kilter too! Hopefully we’ll find our centre of gravity again soon =)
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That’s a really good point you made: the whole WORLD feels off-balance, so of course we do too! Thanks for coming to find me on here too, Kate!!
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Oh girl! I feel ya! Iβve been taking breaks in my writing and other projects lately. I have to remind myself all the time that itβs okay to not do a thousand things at once. Hang in there!
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Wait, it’s okay to not do a thousand things at once?!?! Just kidding π thanks mama xoxo
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